I always wonder where the next bend in the river-of-life will take me. Whether it be smooth or rough; fast or slow. In the off chance it’s a waterfall, I hope my kayak will always pull through, let alone, me. One of those waterfalls was a new friendship that began at the end of last school-year. A smart talented and quirky person. They touched me emotionally in a way no one had done, so far… Many call these moments/relationships with others, milestones. For me to go through so many brilliantly curious events in such a short time with this person was impossible for me to imagine prior to it happening, but it did….. I DO NOT regret those times, they were fun! Then, something horrible happened, I realized the waterfall wasn’t small. The drop wasnt fun and wasnt smooth, I found myself at the bottom of the falls gasping for air, hoping it would be over soon. It wasn’t. I was hoping I could end it quickly, but I decided to see it to the end. That end didn’t come for the foreseeable future. Although….. until recently I realized that it may have ended, the waterfall over, and I am wiping my face clear of the excess silt and water. I can’t see very far ahead, and I am disoriented and confused regarding my whereabouts , but I am hoping at the end of this bend in the river, is a beautiful shoreline and that this waterfall turns into something more amazing or beneficial (in my ride on this short bend in the river of life) than I can image….. yet! -Stay hungry, Stay foolish.
A great love is a lot like a good memory. When it’s there, and you know it’s there, but it’s just out of reach, it can be all that you think about. And you can focus on it and try to force it, but the more you do, the more you seem to push it away, but if your patient and you hold still, well maybe, just maybe, it’ll come to you.
This seems to be the one thing that holds me here, holds me solid on the ground and keeps me afloat every time I think I am going to drown, but recently, even when you feel like you are doing great, it seems to not always be the case. Well I hope that soon this uneasy/ridiculous/awkward feeling for that person, will go AWAY! and maybe, just maybe, things will subside…and life wont feel like a tight rope act..